Sunday, September 24, 2006 @ 1:15 AM
I admit that I'm very troubled by many matters for the past few weeks, or even months. Not just sheep or studies, family as well. We're having financial problem, and my mum's ill.
We're not too sure about what's she getting. I shan't reveal too much.
But I was pretty much taken away by the news when my dad spoke to me some time ago. My heart haven't really adjust itself as yet. I pushed aside the emotion, not wanting to deal with them, and thus failure in many aspects in my life.
Yet the Lord my God is still here with me. Always there, to listen to me. Yet I was foolish to just lie to myself and push aside my emotions. God was there for me to talk to. I've settled these with God. Faith and trust in Him, that all will be fine. (:
Thanks to my teacher, Mrs Nathan as well.
Oh. And girls. You know who you are. I really hope the two of you may reconcile and well, come to know God personally already. Oh, as for you, recommit to God already. I see that you have the desire to know God, but something's stopping you. And you, recommit to God, repent, and change into a new life already. It hurts to see you getting from bad to worse.
I'll pray for you girls.
Despite it all, I'll still give thanks to God, for He is great and mighty and powerful and wonderful and excellent and magnificent and so many other things. Hallelujah.
Lead me, mould me, grow me.
A touch from You is what I desire. Even just a touch of Your presence, I'm satisfied.
But God, I seriously don't just want to be satisfied. I want to be joyous.
Let me sink into Your presence. Everyday. So close. So deep.
I desire.